NTU Economics Year 2

8th FOOT Treasurer

9th FOOT Logistics

Full time slacker=P

Kota Kinabalu(1)

Datuk(1)

Pelepah(3)

Lata(2)

Desaru(1)

Endau Rompin(4)

Grade 8 distinction

GPA > 4.0

Sunrise at peak of Kinabalu

Sunset at peak of Datuk

Berkelah

Stong

Visit Dubai

Backpack Europe and Canada

Woke up on Monday morning with a body aching from head to toe. Must be due to the lack of exercise. The step up race is 1X good reminder that I MUST PUT IN MORE EFFORT TO KEEP FIT!

I was quite early for lesson but it being a Monday morning and my longest day, I was quite reluctant to leave the room. So I slowly cooked myself breakfast, slowly had my breakfast and slowly pack up to leave. By the time I was out of the door, I was already 5 min late for lesson. LOL. BUT, imagine if I had left for lesson on time, I would have seen that EEE student jump off the building. So that god I was late for lesson.

I've been quite sway for the past few weeks. First, there was some problems with the brakes on my bike for one of the recees, then it was a stolen bike on the next recee (I was the one who told Lauren to lock it at hall), then it was a car crash on the next next recee, then our Lorry died on the road in JE on the next next next recee. Went for Berkelah and sprained an ankle. Didn't check email so didn't realize that Monday's quiz was open book-_-. Few days ago my laptop malfunctioned and is still undergoing operation at the servicing centre.

This week got some improvement. The only sway thing that happened was to give my tutor 3X bad impression in 1 tutorial. First, got caught crashing tutorial. Second, quiz never get full marks then the tutor gave me the "Why you so stupid" look. 3rd, got called up to the board to solve tutorial question but cannot solve! Then tutor gave me the "Hais, hopeless" look.

There are still many little little sway things that has happened. E.g. wanna on the shower colder but accidentally on hotter etc. On a positive note, all the sway stuff were interesting experiences. In fact I really had a good laugh over those incidents. 破钱消灾了，相信日后一切都顺利!

Currently I'm back at home because tml got piano lesson so thought it would be good to polish up my techniques a bit. The piano at home has been giving me problems because it cannot handle the kind of intensity I need to achieve the correct tone and texture. Its quite frustrating but I cannot afford to get a European piano so have to make do with the China piano at home. At times wondering if I would have gotten a diploma by now if I had placed greater priority in music. My piano teacher was right. It was always Table Tennis, then academics, then work, hall, ODAC... But never piano. Wondering if I ought to spend more time on my Piano. Perhaps continue to pursue a diploma before I graduate. Hmmm...

有时明明知道吃力不讨好但仍然作出那个选择，这样是固执还是愚蠢呢？唉，老师就是每次骂我苯, 明明可以得到根多，但偏偏就喜欢 settle for less. 这样叫做知足，还是懒惰呢？

人就是那么奇怪...

Ok, I know that was random. Have been thinking a bit lately. Becuase times passes so fast, it seem like year 2 is ending. And since there are only 2 more years left in my university life, I wanna make the best out of it. The thing I find myself unable to deal with choices. Just like the transition from year 1 to 2. I have the tendency to procrastinate or even run away just because I dun wanna make a choice until the very last minute. People say that looking back is for you to reflect, not turn back. Easier said than done.

I'm confused because I'm clear that my choices are going to impact my life. And when that impact grows bigger in magnitude as you age, it makes it harder to make decisions. At times I wished I could be like my sister; she welcomes the world with open arms. 我实在做不到阿!

Today met Janice after lesson to get back my treking bag on her. Then janice late for 45min! Left me a lot of time to think so ended up think so much. Recalled why I chose to do Econs 2 years back. Hmmm, rmbed that I chose Econs over Business because I had predicted the economy to be in recession the year I grad. Course I considered include Physics, Maths and EEE. Econs was a logical choice at that moment. But ultimately the choice was due to a 6th sense that Econs was really the course for me.

I should take pen and paper and pen down plan A to Z for the future. Maybe tml I should head down to the Library to look for a book on how to make choices.